I am so excited right now and literally so happy because for months of being at home, I finally landed a job! I just can’t believe that by next year I will no longer be lazing around at home doing nothing. Lol.
I’m sharing this right now with you guys because finding a job that fits your skills is quite hard these days, especially to a person like me who is a fresh graduate and is just starting out, I seriosuly had a hard time these past few months. I honestly was depressed although it was not totally obvious but to tell you the truth, I was. I came to the point in my life where I no longer don’t want to use any form of social medias, I deactivated my facebook account, deleted and didn’t use my twitter and instagram accounts for months because every time I use them I just feel more depressed looking at the posts or updates from my batchmates who are already starting their own career. I was green with envy and it wasn’t doing me anything good at all, so I decided to quit social media at that time because it was already toxic for me, it was just making me compare myself to other people’s achievements and I wasn’t believing in myself anymore, at that very moment I wasn’t able to be sincerely happy for my friends because I felt envy instead, which is not good and I felt so horrible and wasn’t a good friend.
I was no longer happy with my life, I was moping around and thinking absurd stuff like I am never going to get a job because I’m stupid, I am not getting the job I want because I will never going to be good enough, I will forever going to be an extra baggage, and I also thought that maybe I should just die (but I will never ever attempt to do so, that is just so beyond me) because I can’t do anything right anymore and I never felt so useless in my entire life.
I know what this sounds like that I was just overly dramatic, which in fact, I think I was, but if you’re in a situation like mine, when you feel so depressed it really helps that you have friends or loved ones or it can be just one person who will encourage you that it’s still not the end of your journey yet, who will be there for you no matter what and will tell you to never give up because sometimes when we’re about to give up all we need is a little push from the people that we love.
I was lucky enough to have people who are there for me and keeps on encouraging me.
Through this experience I learned that giving up is not an option in life and I need to work hard and double my effort in order to get the things or the job that I want.
To the one who’s reading this and is currently having a hard time right now, don’t ever give up and just keep on striving hard because life will always going to be difficult, it’s up to you how you handle it and make the most out of it.