I am so excited right now and literally so happy because for months of being at home, I finally landed a job! I just can’t believe that by next year I will no longer be lazing around at home doing nothing. Lol.
I’m sharing this right now with you guys because finding a job that fits your skills is quite hard these days, especially to a person like me who is a fresh graduate and is just starting out, I seriosuly had a hard time these past few months. I honestly was depressed although it was not totally obvious but to tell you the truth, I was. I came to the point in my life where I no longer don’t want to use any form of social medias, I deactivated my facebook account, deleted and didn’t use my twitter and instagram accounts for months because every time I use them I just feel more depressed looking at the posts or updates from my batchmates who are already starting their own career. I was green with envy and it wasn’t doing me anything good at all, so I decided to quit social media at that time because it was already toxic for me, it was just making me compare myself to other people’s achievements and I wasn’t believing in myself anymore, at that very moment I wasn’t able to be sincerely happy for my friends because I felt envy instead, which is not good and I felt so horrible and wasn’t a good friend.
I was no longer happy with my life, I was moping around and thinking absurd stuff like I am never going to get a job because I’m stupid, I am not getting the job I want because I will never going to be good